Doll Face – Real or Not?

Check out this short film by Andy Huang, its awesome and worthy of the 4 minutes it’ll take out of your life, trust me! It’s about how we try so hard to be something we’re not. I really love the ending. What do you make of it? I love how the girl constantly tries to keep up with the image she thinks she should be, based on what the tv shows her she should look like. I took it as she kept chasing the tv, only to keep trying to keep up and be someone that she’s not, only to realize she was chasing after something that wasn’t real to begin with, hence leading to her breakdown. Good stuff, eh? Andy Huang and the makers of Mac’s Cult of Cherry video should get together and make magic together!

Give up my life for clear skin? Sure! Where do I sign?

So I’m one of those people that have been battling acne for years. Since my teens, to be exact, and I’m in my mid twenties now and I have yet to see my way to victory. Not to say I didn’t give it a fair fight. I have seriously tried everything or at least almost everything that was worth trying out there except that one scary thing. Yep. You know what it is. That devlish thing we’ll refer to as accutane. I was scared to try it for a number of reasons, but mostly for the warnings of possible side effects of depression, and suicide. Yep, there have been hundreds of cases where people have killed themselves while taking this very drug, and still thousands of other cases of depression! No need to worry huh? While on accutane, I’m also not allowed to drink alcohol. 7 months of no alcohol for a 20 something year old – no problem! No, not a hint of sarcasm there But really, the reason I’m most terrified of taking accutane is because I get bad migraines and they’re triggered when I take certain types of antibiotics or pills. Anytime I’ve ever taken any type of other antibiotic for acne or birth control pills, it triggered bad migraines and I had to stop taking them. I can only take birth control in the form of nuvaring. So I’m really hoping I’ll be ok with this.

I had to share some pics of the packaging with you. When I first opened this, I was so freaked out! I have never seen more scarier, discouraging medication packaging in my life. Funny thing is, I opened this when I was on the train and the woman next to me couldn’t stop staring at it either with this puzzled look! LOL

Reminding you that you can’t get pregnant! LOL

You also can’t wax or do laser treatmeant while on it. I had to stop my laser sessions which I already paid for and it’s really going to suck not being able to wax my eyebrows for 7 months! I’m going to end up looking like grover from sesame street but at least I’ll have clear skin! (hopefully!) It really seems like people give up a lot and go through a lot while on accutane. I’ve been reading forums and people experiences, and sure while there’s some amazing results, people suffer some bad side effects. I’m really nervous…Is it worth the risk? I mean they say accutane should be the last resort, after you’ve exhausted all other methods. And I certainly have and nothing has worked. So I guess if I want any hope for clear skin, I need to try this right?

Well today is day 1 of my cycle. Wish me luck! I certainly had to go through a LOT to get these! I’ll keep you updated!